Stayed up till 2.40am talking to boyfriend on the phone yesterday. Parents don’t know about us being together, so had to, as usual, hide under my duvet and whisper. Fell asleep so quickly after the phone conversation; we were both so tired and sleepy at that time in the morning.
It’s incredible how attached I have become to my boyfriend over the past few days. Especially yesterday and the day before, I think I was almost becoming a little paranoid, wanting to know what he is up to all the time, whether everything is okay. I think it’s mainly because of us seeing each other two days ago, and getting very close then, that it is difficult to adapt to not having each other by our side at this moment.
Although we have been together for nearly a year, I haven’t felt such a strong sense of attachment until recently. Boyfriend has always been so caring and he puts a lot of effort in our relationship. Perhaps I am just feeling the way he has always felt about us…?
In a few days’ time I’m going round to his. That is probably the last time we are going to spend with each other properly before the exam period, which will last a while! I don’t know whether it would be easy to be away from each other for so long, with both of us being busy all the time. But I suppose we will manage, as we have done before. 
As I said before, my parents (whom I still live with) don’t know about us so I will have to make up an excuse for going out. I hate lying, I really do. Especially as I am so close with my parents, we talk about a lot of things together everyday. But, knowing that they’d be against us being together if they find out, I have no other real choice. I am just doing what is best, perhaps, for all of us.
